Wednesday, 26 December 2012
Diary of 26 December 2012 No. 2
Another shit thing had happen. My mood is going wrong now and here comes the other one that makes my mood even worse. I was happy, watching "Just A Little Bit Better" and suddenly a man that appears to be the repairman for my house's electronics gate came and makes me feeling down a little.
Ok...I know he was just doing his work just as what my father told him so I learnt to retreat a little. But things gone wrong again as my father came back. He starts to acuse my mom of taking his key and he is unhappy about it. Ok...I don't know where was his key but I preety sure that my mom didn't take it. There is a big percentage that my mom won't take his key because we all know the consequence of taking his key which we will just end up being scolded by him only. Trust me, you would not want to hear him talking about all that crap of taking his key and his other stuff.
Ok...I know I may be wrong of saying my mom doesn't take the key(maybe it is her that take the key), so, I will not say that my dad was wrong about my mom taking his key thing. But, we already used to it and I don't even argue with my dad or else he will get sad and start nagging. So, the best way to get the things done is by asking my mom whetehr she did take my father's key or not and find out where his key is. If I couldn't find his key, I think I will just let it go and prepare myself of hearing all the"speech" he has to give even thouh I can't bear it. So, I guess I will just write it down in here to express the problem I faced and the same problem that makes me headache.
Ok...I know he was just doing his work just as what my father told him so I learnt to retreat a little. But things gone wrong again as my father came back. He starts to acuse my mom of taking his key and he is unhappy about it. Ok...I don't know where was his key but I preety sure that my mom didn't take it. There is a big percentage that my mom won't take his key because we all know the consequence of taking his key which we will just end up being scolded by him only. Trust me, you would not want to hear him talking about all that crap of taking his key and his other stuff.
Ok...I know I may be wrong of saying my mom doesn't take the key(maybe it is her that take the key), so, I will not say that my dad was wrong about my mom taking his key thing. But, we already used to it and I don't even argue with my dad or else he will get sad and start nagging. So, the best way to get the things done is by asking my mom whetehr she did take my father's key or not and find out where his key is. If I couldn't find his key, I think I will just let it go and prepare myself of hearing all the"speech" he has to give even thouh I can't bear it. So, I guess I will just write it down in here to express the problem I faced and the same problem that makes me headache.
Diary of 26 December 2012
Actually it is a good day where I go out with my mom and my aunts together with my mom's best friend for a breakfast in Butterworth. It starts out great but it turns upside down when I phoned the health clinic in Bukit Mertajam for medical checkup as the required preparation in PLKN(National Service).
At first, there is a nice lady that answered the phone but it appeared to be a wrong dialing number. So, I tried the other number suggested by the lady but it turned out I still get nothing. The way the another lady answered my question in the phone was intimidating to me even though she didn't do anything that traten my life. But the memory when talking with her was unbearable. It kept playing in my mind that I could not forget our conversation. She kept ignore her conversation with me and talked with her colleague that it made my confidence kept going down. I had to admit I'm not a confident man. Another thing was she kind of not willing to receive my visit there. It appeared to me that she wanted to push away the responsibility of having me there to receive the medical checkup. I was so sad and dissapointed and now I also appear to be paranoid. I freaked out inside of me!
Now, I have made my decision to go to the health clinic at Berapit although I do not expect much from that health clinic. I think it will turn out to be the same worse service I get in that government health clinic.
I know I sound like a loser, being defated just by a phone call but I have never in my life have so much things appeared like this. I have to call the driving schoolmyself to get myself some useful information. It has changed permanently that I have to depend on myself to get things right now but I still feel like I'm not ready yet. I still want the help from my parent and I think that I'm not ready to step into the real world yet.
In conclusion, I don't know what to do in that damn government clinic in Berapit. I'm thinking just to go there and find out for myself.
Seriously, I feeling good after having all my emotion being released through my blog and I don't scare a bit of talking something very personal about me because no one will ever read my blog except some true friends I met in my life.
I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes and inorganized writing and spelling mistakes(maybe) but I just expressed what buried deep inside me just to make my heart feeling light again.
At first, there is a nice lady that answered the phone but it appeared to be a wrong dialing number. So, I tried the other number suggested by the lady but it turned out I still get nothing. The way the another lady answered my question in the phone was intimidating to me even though she didn't do anything that traten my life. But the memory when talking with her was unbearable. It kept playing in my mind that I could not forget our conversation. She kept ignore her conversation with me and talked with her colleague that it made my confidence kept going down. I had to admit I'm not a confident man. Another thing was she kind of not willing to receive my visit there. It appeared to me that she wanted to push away the responsibility of having me there to receive the medical checkup. I was so sad and dissapointed and now I also appear to be paranoid. I freaked out inside of me!
Now, I have made my decision to go to the health clinic at Berapit although I do not expect much from that health clinic. I think it will turn out to be the same worse service I get in that government health clinic.
I know I sound like a loser, being defated just by a phone call but I have never in my life have so much things appeared like this. I have to call the driving schoolmyself to get myself some useful information. It has changed permanently that I have to depend on myself to get things right now but I still feel like I'm not ready yet. I still want the help from my parent and I think that I'm not ready to step into the real world yet.
In conclusion, I don't know what to do in that damn government clinic in Berapit. I'm thinking just to go there and find out for myself.
Seriously, I feeling good after having all my emotion being released through my blog and I don't scare a bit of talking something very personal about me because no one will ever read my blog except some true friends I met in my life.
I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes and inorganized writing and spelling mistakes(maybe) but I just expressed what buried deep inside me just to make my heart feeling light again.
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